Dominik Pucek

My limited definition on consciousness was brought to a bit of an awakening and/or broadening of perspective. During the stream of consciousness exercise, it was difficult to formulate into words not only the myriad of thoughts passing through my mind, whether staccato or more allegro, but also the process of thoughts and what that meant as a definition of my consciousness.

Has anyone seen one of those Mass Mutual commercials? You know, the one with the protagonist meeting his other selves, i.e., I'm hungry, I'm cold and What's on TV? Then there's one thought who finally gets to be in use - and of course it's the one thinking of his retirement. You should probably watch more TV, or less, depending.

What about our reactive, automatic self? The self that seems to perform when we are not "thinking." Carter asks us, "why do we dance more naturally when we stop being self-conscious?" Performance, then, seems to be tied into the body and mind. I see Tennis as living evidence that the mind and body are not separated, but rather, inextricably intertwined.

mMMMmmmmm bass lunges like a flying whale frantic metal dances in front inside behind and through fills the lungs with time and always flying slapping snares snap synapses contract and collapse spheres of atomic impressions sutble melodies swim within around and spin pitches bend chromatic syllabic currents somatic schematics comatonic cataclysmic pitch shifts again and atmospherics sigh away to sleep

whales return

frentic metallics

b b u u u i i l l l l l ll d dd dd

BREAK

drummed and bassed again

Had a terrifying experience the other night. I woke up from a dream to find that I was still dreaming. Literally.

I have always been intrigued by deja vu. I don't remember the first time I experienced it, but I experience it a few times a year, and each time I don't really feel a fear come over anymore, more of a comfort. I think this is because I've rationalized the whole thing, analyzed it as hard as I could, and thus took the mysticism out of it. It has lost its quality to me as prophecy, or precognition. Its also been scientifically explained as an anomaly of memory/vision, perhaps related to stress. Interesting, but boring, maybe. As a matter of fact, I had deja vu twice this week. I feel the scientific answer is right. Why?

So apparently out of body experiences can be induced (I sent you all an article about this, come on, reconstruct - you remember). Isn't that ridiculous? And amazing. Our bodies are wonderfully brilliant organic machines aren't they?