Well, my dreams regarding my ex-boyfriend have apparently not yet ended, but at least this is the last time the blogs are going to have to hear about it. I don't know why it is that I can't stop dreaming about him, the dreams go away for months at a time, and them come back with avengence. The past two nights I have dreamt of him, but at least now I am no longer looking for him, now I am running from him.
Last night I dreamt that my sister was babysitting his dog and I had to go over there to use his computer. I saw his mom and I think I may have taken a picture with her, but then I left to avoid him. I stopped at some kind of fancy dress shop on my walk home and found this really brightly colored prom looking dress. It had stripes of extremely bright orange, purple, blue, and green, and looking back now it was pretty ugly, but I really loved it in the dream. The dress was $200 and I knew it would be a waste of money so I said to myself that I was just going to try it on.
Well once I tried the dress on I really loved it and I didn't want to take it off, so I just left the store with the dress on. I was somewhat aware that I had just stolen a $200 dress so I started to kind of trot home. I passed the lady that was working at the store, but she was out to lunch, so she didn't know that I had stolen the dress.
Then, I was walking in the street and I looked up to my ex-boyfriends car speeding towards me..HE WAS ABOUT TO RUN ME OVER. I jumped out of the way and as the car drove my I saw all my old friends packed inside. This made me jealous that I couldn't be hanging out with them and I started thinking that it was a bad idea that I broke up with him.
I had a bit of an overlap between my ex and the current boyfriend (I met my man when I still with the ex) and in the dream I started to think that maybe there could have been a way for me to stay with both of them. All these feelings of jealousy and regret came to me as I was walking backwards watching his car speed away.
the problem is that when I am awake and conscious of my thoughts I never wonder if I should have broken up with him....I KNOW I should have...so whats with the dreams?!?!