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May 7, 2007

(Spring Blog #23) A Dream: Late night stroll...

I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I was walking down the street in my old neighborhood in Valley Stream, by my old elementary school, at 3 or 4 in the morning/night (At least that's the time it seemed to be to me in case you are interested in the specifics of the hour). I was walking and all of a sudden my cell phone went off at and I looked on the caller ID and it was my ex-fiancee. Before I could answer I woke up. That's all I can remember from that point on. Have I gone crazy? You decide. My mind seems to be playing tricks on me lately. Spatial disorientation seems to be a constant theme of my dreams--as well as in waking life now too (that certain friend who called me on the weekend and woke me up from my beauty sleep!!!! I didn;t know where I was!!), it seems (lol). Discuss....

(Spring Blog #24) A Dream: "Blob" dream

I had a dream where I was just going through a cycle of evernts that I had recently undergone, "rapid fire" stlye. I would jump from one event to the next--without any rhyme or reason to what I was doing--it was based solely on my recent experiences the last few days. It seemed to be mental regurgitation or "diarrhea" of the dream plane, if such a thing exists. Lately things have been such a blur to me that it is no coincidence that this dream reflects this point. Has anyone else experienced this sensation where it seems that your recent memories were thrown into a blender and you could recall excerpts of these events like I did for a few moments upon awakening?

(Spring Blog #25) Reflection on course web project

Here are my two cents. Take 'em for what they;re worth. The web project was not what I thought it would be. I probably had the worst webpage in our class. I think I started to get the hang of it at the end--specifically the last couple of days, but it didn't turn out as well as I thought it would or could. The jargon got me at first and then the heavy toll of my student teaching added to my job on the weekend both combined to exert a heavy toll upon me. These factors--not to make excuses, but hey I gotta defend myself--combined to make my end result one that wasn't as good as it could have been. If it's not too late I'll try to improve upon it some, but I wish we had more time to work on this then we did. The tutorial should have been given earlier in the semester so we didn't have to rush the way that we did, but what do I know?...

(Spring Blog #26) A Dream: Quitting my job...

My boss at work has been driving me crazy lately. I quit my Friday shift to focus more on school and I got screwed over on the weekends because of an ownership change. To make a long story short, the new owner promised to leave me alone, and then he went back on his word. My boss is a good guy, who's stuck in the middle admittedly, however he should've showed me more resepct than he did by calling me and telling me what this new guy wants me to do when he knows pefectly well that I won't do it. I didn't care anymore and called him and said that you can do what you want, but if you don't give me an assignment that I can handle after going back on your word then I guess you're losing an employee. He knew that I was serious and I was proud of myself for once--I actually stood up for myself.

I dreamed about quitting on these bastards "Scarface style" (the famous character from Half-Baked). I actually told my boss off in my dreams and they begged me to come back...which wasn't exactly the case in waking life, but I did get the assignment that I requested. I've been with them for a bit now and felt that I had enough cache to request what I wanted, which I actually got (Thank God). Here's that famous scene from "Half Baked" where Scarface quits in style, doing something which we ALL wish that we could do!

(Spring Blog #28) A Dream: Disoriented

I had a dream where I was just walking around and wasn't aware of where I was at any given moment other than knowing that I was constantly moving around without knowing where I was going. The colors around me would change and I would try to sit down, but the sense of disorientation was too great for me to overcome. I get this sense sometimes in waking life when all this shit that I'm bombarded with at Francis Lewis H.S. and here at Q.C. becomes too overwhelming for me. I don't sit down though, even though I'd like to. My worlkload has just gotten crazy and there are times where I don't know if I'm coming or going. I suppose that this is the manifestation of my waking life problems into my dreamscapes. It would be cool if I were lucid during this. I'll actually try to do this once we're done (Too bad that's not until the end of June for me...lol).

May 14, 2007

(Spring Blog #27) Reflection on upcoming Conference

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I feel both a sense of apprehension and excitement in anticipation of this fast approaching conference, which is only 2 days away. I feel more prepared due to the amount of work that we've put into this, both contenet-wise and stylistically. The group presentation work which we worked on at the begining of the year (way back in the Fall) will now benefit us immensely for this conference. The key is getting the jitters out, which the rehearsal will hopefully do tomorrow.

Personally, I feel that my student teaching experience has prepared me for the role of Moderator extremely well because I am now more familiar with speaking in front of large groups of students (about 60 per day). I researched the work of the 5 speakers that I will introduce and have prepared a brief introductory speech as well (SEE THE DOWNLOADABLE LINK ON TOP OF THE PAGE OR THE TEXT AT THE BOTTOM). I encourage anyone with suggestions for me to post them here, after reading my prepared introductory speech for Roundtable #2-Words & Pictures: Representing the Elusive Dream. Thank you and best wishes to everyone in performing their given part for the conference on Wednesday.

“Dreams are very elusive. It is as if they are aware that they don’t belong to the realm of waking consciousness and are eager to get back into the darkness from whence they came […] Temporal sequences seem jumbled and juxtaposed in strange ways” (26). –Appreciating Dreams by Montague Ullman (Clinical Professor of Psychiatry Emeritus, Albert Einstein College of Medicine, Yeshiva University)

This quote demonstrates the difficulty of capturing dreams in words or pictures. Their amorphous nature has captured the imaginations of people the world over. Theorists, authors, artists, and film makers have all thrown their figurative hats into the ring of dream theory.

Each of our speakers will address the question of how dreams are represented with respect to differing visual mediums. Tina Ramos will discuss our blogs, which we have been working on as a class since the end of August of last year until now. They reflect our class’s attempts at capturing the elusive feeling of describing our dreams and their subsequent effects on our waking lives. They range from the absurd to the heart wrenching and the solemn to the comical. Why this variation you may ask? The answer lies within the plastic nature of our dreams themselves which provides the spark for these types of dreams in the first place.

Doreen Deignan has explored this concept in Kazuo Ishiguro’s novel The Unconsoled. Ishiguro has found a new way to use dreams to create an environment that is both disorienting and familiar. His writing in the "language of Dreams" is the glue that links the form and the content in his novel. The world which Ishiguro has created is one in which the writer’s imagination converges with a setting that is as surreal as it is recognizable, turning the reader’s conception of what is real and what isn’t upside down in the process.

Caroline Yu has focused upon the surrealistic art of Salvador Dali, which is directly influenced by Sigmund Freud and aims to represent the hidden desires which are encoded in dreams. Dali’s stated desire "to systematize confusion and contribute to the total discrediting of the world of reality" made him an instant star among the Surrealists, until he proved to be too surreal even for their tastes. This, likewise, aims to capture the hazy sensation of dreaming that teeters on the brink of reality and the fantastic.

Melissa Chen has focused her effort on describing how the contemporary medium of anime is dramatizing Japanese cultural and historical ideas about dreams on the screen. She discusses how one specific aspect of anime reflects the current conflicting approaches to dream theory—that is the “interpretive” and “scientific” approaches. She discusses how the interpretive approach is more “spiritual” in nature and compares this to the scientific approach which is seen as being the result of material causes.

Maria Hartolfilis discusses how film makers, such as Ingmar Bergman, have used the film making medium to portray dreams as being more concrete and less tactile. She discusses the long tradition of filmmakers incorporating psychological elements when constructing their films so that their audiences may gain deeper insight into their own innermost feelings and desires.

We all can learn more about the elusive concept of dreams by understanding how each of these respective mediums functions with respect to capturing something, which by its very definition is nebulous and fluid. By themselves, these mediums may not make the case for representing dreams in a more concrete fashion, however taken as a whole they can teach us more about the very nature of dreams themselves, but our own individual psyches as well in the process. We welcome you to explore these ideas with us…

May 21, 2007

(Spring Blog #29) A Dream: Groundhog Day Dream

Has anyone ever had a dream in which they envision the same scenario in many different ways over the course of the same night/dream? Is it just me, or do I have an overactive guilt complex..wait don't answer that one. Anyone who's read my psychobabble over the course of the past semester can attest to the fact that I readily admit---I could use a shrink to "talk out" my relationship issues! (it's pathetic, i know...lol @ myself)

I've repeated scenarios in which I can see myself doing things differently, but with the same result over and over and over again (breaking up SUCKS, but being dumped is even WORSE). No matter what I say or do differently each time---the end result is always the same---I get screwed (figuratively speaking of course for you pervs out there with the hairy hands!).

I'll try and see, through priming, if this dream of mine can become lucid if I experience it anymore. I guess our psyches just tend to repeat shit that is stuck in our memories---it's just never been expurgated from my "internal hard drive" so to speak, to use a "techie" metapor. Fuck Frued I say...maybe I can open a clinic!

(Spring Blog #30) Final Entry: The closing of the blogs

This is kind of a surreal experience---Salvador Dali would be proud! Writing about the closing of these blogs, something which we've been doing since August of last year, is bitter-sweet in a way. Look, those of you who know me will probably say that he's REALLY lost it now while reading this, but wait: The blogs have been fun--not that they weren't before (Prof. Tougaw knows I'm just kidding!) whenever we've just sat down and written what was on our minds with respect to what we thought the supposed rationales were behind our dreams.

We should all be proud in a way. I mean look at tlike this: We've ALL come up with a TON of convoluted shit! Some of us took these things back to our childhoods. Others, have reflected upon failed relationships and dead relatives, just to name a few popular topics. We've also tried to tie some theory up into this dream-a-thonic bitch (please excuse the misogynistic metaphor). In the end it all came to down to this...(Please excuse me for this, but I know that I'm sounding more like John by the word---HOLY SHIT!!)---we are all trying to come to grips with certain aspects of our selves, deep within our unconscious psyches, regardless of whether we realize this or not. Our waking lives serve to spur us on with respect to coming up with more things to dream about. Repressed thought plays into this, and sometimes they don't--sorry Siggy!! (that's what they called him in "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure")

I'll leave you cats out there with this last tidbit before signing off for the semester: Dreams are a smorgasbord of desire, regret, overactive minds repeating things for no particular reason--at least that we know of, and memory consolidation (to use a scientific word and pacify my scientifc side). If we get nothing else from our experiences documenting our dreams, we can at least realize that we are all going to look back at this and realize that dreams are truly the only aspects of oursleves that transcend the bounds of reality. Sometimes "escaping" from ourselves into ourselves is necessary in order for us to come to grips with who we all really are.

OK had enough? See the YOUTUBE CLIP BELOW for more of what I mean with respect to our friend Siggy...lol. Bill & Ted fans you better not blink (pay attention to the 0:24 second mark) !!

To quote Bugs Bunny!! That's all folks!!

May 23, 2007

Deja vu!!!!

I just had to share this on the blogs today. I experienced this sensation today while student teaching today at Francis Lewis HS. I was standing at the front of the classroom, at the very beginning of class, and some of the students had crowded around me to see their grades in my gradebook. At that very moment, I felt this EERY sense of deja vu. I had a dream where I imagined this exact scenario, and I didn't recall it until that moment. It felt COMPLETELY SURREAL. I wanted to just sit down and let it sink in for a second, but a class of ninth graders at 9 am won't exactly stand for that---by the way they are a GREAT class; I'm very lucky in that regard--no degenerates among them, well at least those who are don't show up! lol. Has anyone else experienced this before? I'm actually wrapping back around to the beginning of the blogs, when I wrote about this exact scenario in August. How appropriate! Discuss....hmmmnnn.....("Fascinating...", to quote Mr. Spock!)

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