The second part of this dream was also very realistic. My ex, all of a sudden, has a new man, who comes into the room where she was verbally scathing me and starts to beat me down, interrogation style. All of a sudden, she jumps into the fray and starts to kick my ass too, making me feel like a total piece of crap! During the dream I felt a mixture of sadness, despair, betrayal, hopelessness, and anger. It's all proabably related to the guilt I carry around during waking life, but keep to myself.
On the vain side, the strange thing about this guy was that he was not better looking than me (not that I'm arrogant about my looks---I think I'm average lookin'---but I know a better looking dude when I see one, especially when it relates my ex). I would have at least expected her to "trade up", but I thought to myself, "was this the best that she could do?" I was thinking about this, mind you AFTER I woke up, and NOT during the ass whopin' that the two of them gave me during the dream. It felt SO weird, and made me want to check and see if I was in the looney bin when I woke up afterwards. I just hope that this was a dream that was based on my over active psyche, and pray that it is in NO WAY true. If it is, then this dude better prepare for a beat down from me in waking life, provided I find out who the bastard is.
P.S. One more thing: Oh yeah, my ex-fiancée was beating me and egged on the new guy to kick my ass with a virulence that was reserved for serial killers. It made me feel like I was her life-long enemy or something, which really bummed me out during the dream and after I woke up, considering all the time we spent together and the memories that we shared. Ugh...
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Not to seem cruel (esp. since you seem to still have some very strong feelings for your ex), but I laughed when I read this dream. Maybe you should learn some lucid dreaming tricks? This way your conscious self can interupt these kind of dreams by, I don't know, maybe turning them into bugs that you can stomp on? :)
Posted by vitaminc | April 10, 2007 1:32 AM
Posted on April 10, 2007 01:32
I didn't laugh at this dream, because I know what it's like to feel like a woman has scooped your guts out and have nightmares about her making you feel like shit. It's an ugly feeling. Obviously you were really in a serious relationship with your ex and its hard to get it out of your thoughts. I ain't no one ta say "Ya gotta forget about her and move on," cuz I know that's a lot easier said than done. As long as she remains in the back of your head, there's just gonna be days when ya wake up feeling like shit, and nights when ya have bad dreams. Ya gotta glut yourself on the shitty feeling though, until ya absolutely won't even go there with yourself no more, not even in your dreams. And that takes a lot. Just know that at some point you will, and then these kinda dreams about her will stop. It takes time. But one day you will wake up and just say fuck it, fuck her, fuck the past, fuck thinking about it, fuck feeling guilty, second-guessing, all that shit. Then the air will smell sweet again my friend. But ta tell ya the truth, ya gotta kill a little part of yourself ta do it. That's the really hard part. But if and when you meet someone else, you'll do things different, and you'll grow a new piece of your heart to replace the one you lost. That's the best that I can tell ya. Alright, I'm startin' ta sound like a goddamned Hallmark commercial, so let me just end it at that. Good luck man.
Posted by Mr. Mxylplyx | April 10, 2007 7:51 AM
Posted on April 10, 2007 07:51